To be the one who’s in your arms to hold you tight
I want to be with you
There’s nothing more to say
There’s nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I want to be with you
(via gleefullyspectacular)
Hello readers, it’s been awhile since I’ve updated this space. Life has gotten pretty hectic ( and somewhat gloom to me these days ), hence I couldn’t really muster the energy to blog. Today I’m going to pen down something that has impacted me in a significant and great way, which happened a month ago.
I had a wonderful and surreal moment spent with Nicole from {nicolethen studios}. The picture above was one of the many pictures she took on that day. I was completely taken by surprise to hear from her, she was a joy to work with too. I was nervous and paranoid as it was my first time for a shoot, thankfully I was in good hands as she was completely composed and patient with great hospitality too. I can’t thank her enough, really. I know many to some it might not be a big deal, but to me it was taking a step into a world which I had been introvert-ly interested and enthusiatic about. You know I’ve always have a liking for vintage, photography and fashion. (esp my friends who knows I’m crazily obsessed with my idol - Nicole from Garry pepper… whom btw share the same first name as Nicole from Nicolethen studios & they both COINCIDENTALLY has similar taste as I caught Nicole from Nicolethen, sporting the same YSL ring)
Okay, getting back to the point.. My point for this update is to thank Nicole Then for the wonderful experience she gave me. Thank you thank you thank you! & I love the photos you produced!
please check out her website at: www.blog.nicolethen.com
P.S. To find beauty and confidence, is not only when realizing it in gratitude. But through gratitude that open the eyes to find what you have been missing all along.
At this point in life, I started to look around myself and realized what I’ve achieved so far. Sure, I’ve made friends I know I’ll always be able to count on them, and several unforgettable experiences. But, sadly I realized that I’ve yet to achieve something remarkable on my own.
If I had to factor out the wonderful relationships and the lucky yet unforgettable experiences, honestly I am just a girl who has yet to create something big on her own.
I’m stuck in this huge limbo. I hope this is not the end. I’m still in search of what I want to do, what I’m passionate about. And tittering all these thoughts, I’ve only one conclusion. And it points to something that I’ve not been able to try my hand at. Sometimes people asks me why I’m wasting my time doing something I don’t like right now, and they don’t know how much it hurts me. Honestly, I thought this direction was a good way to be exposed to something that would be helpful in the future. Hopefully it will. And these few months, I can say that might just be the most trying moments of my 19 years.
Right now, I’m thankful for all the friends that stood by me, and my darling who is 24/7 on my side (even if he’s a hundred kilometers away). He’s my wonder star, there’s no other.
I’m trying to think that this limbo is just a temporary time that is transacting to change. To something greater in future, for goals and achievements to fall into place. For bigger, better things. And for much more love to grow.
P.S. Dedicated to my wonder star, may each day help us bloom and grow together.
Preoccupied lately.
There’s a changing in life.
Metamorphosis,
I’ve yet to keep up with the world.
That part of me
I know there are the good and bad in life.
Sometimes there’s no lines to separate them apart.
And people make the wrong choices.
I know how its like to make the wrong choice and hurt people.
I know how it feels like to be the “receiving” end too.
Anything that I despised/hated/appalled/disliked, amplified.
All because of one mistake.
But what’s done has been done.
So I sleep at night, trying not to think about it.
Even though its so difficult.
I try to hold back my tears everytime I happened to be reminded about it.
I don’t want the monster to eat me.
And at that moment where hurt was too deep, everything stood still and my heart didn’t know what else to feel but hurt. My eyes stung, like it was on fire. Head pounding with this great pain, as if the skull were about to implode.
I try to not worry. Try to not think. Trying so hard.
Trying trying trying.
Trying to believe that you are the same person you were. The parts I loved still there. and that what mistakes we make wouldnt have to stop us from loving. It can’t. And I can assure that my feelings stay true.
I’m just hoping that its not the faults or mistakes we see when you see “us”. Nor the fights and pain. Don’t tell me its “not enough” when I ask if the mistakes would end up picking up more mistakes and ruining the relationship. Because it would seem that you are looking for the cracks for this to end. I guess we have to embrace each other imperfections. Learn from our mistakes. And NEVER repeat again.
I’ve never regret anything.
You’ll always be that same boy.
The only one I want and need.
This I know true, and I promise.
That, it’ll only be you.
Wondering where your 24/7 toll free went to.
Perpetual presence
In my fantasy world,
Santa dropped off a “little Santa” in my stocking.
Cuteeeeeeee!
The beauty and damned
All over and over
in my head
cuteeee cat! <3
I want to cuddle you, warm little soft ball of fur :)
P.s. You’re really a rare kind. Always special to me. Yes you, the “cat cat” owner.
